I really had a great Thanksgiving with my family and friends. Ofcouse it did not come with its far amount of "holiday" drama but that is to be expected:( It was still really good to see folks that I have not seen in a while but you cant imagine how shocked I was to see my old crush Kevin. He walked through the door looking like a grown ass man with sex appeal spilling all over the place. He stopped by with his younger sister, two small boys and a few other folks that I did not know. Kevin and I never dated however our families have been friends for years.
Our grandmothers were best friends with each other and our mothers went to school together. We practically grew up together. However they lived in another school district so we would see each other every so often. He never knew about the crush..that was my little thing. I have a thing for tall chocolate men with nice teeth and great smiles..a great smile can move their stock up and facial hair takes the stock through the roof! Anyway we kept up a little while we were in college and a little afterward because we wound up living in the same city. I even set him up with one of my friends and it fizzled on the first date. He wasn't feeling her. Was he feeling me? Anyway when he walked through the door with the works same beautiful smile and extra bonus beard to boot! I was pleasantly surprised. The conversation went like this..

Me: Oh my goodness Kevin how are you?
K: Its been so long, how did we lose touch? Are you still in Raleigh?
Me: Yes..Are you? I don't know what happened.
(we chatted for a few minutes about various things all the while I'm thinking...man you are still so handsome)

His sister blurting in our conversation: "Are you married?...Kevin is single "
Me: "No I'm not married ..ok.. whose little boys"
His sister: "Those are my boys...Kevin does not have any kids or a wife"
Kevin (chuckled): "I have your information I will definitely keep in touch with you..."
His sister: "If you two get together we could hang out and shop"..(she laughed)

Not saying anything would come from it with Kevin and I after all we both have grown up and mature enough. However its funny this would come after I made a decision to take a break from dating. OK let me explain. I made a decision a few weeks ago to not date for a while and focus more on a few of the projects that I am working i.e graduate school, my novel,business ect. My son who is with his dad is active in sports, first football now wrestling. I could name a few more things but I don't want to seem as if I am overwhelming myself. If I really dig down deep and tell myself the truth which is what this blog is all about ...truth. I recently broke up with my smell so good, baldy with the salt and pepper goatee. We decided that we would "just be friends". I know it was because I pulled an "old me" move that did not gel to well with him. I knew I needed to take a break and think about why I would even want to resurrect the "old me" ..

I guess I realized that he did not want the same thing that I was after..he just wanted to "kick it" with me. I am not the "kick it" kind of girl. I want something I can sink my teeth into.. After three months of dating...I went into sabatoge mood...doing classic women stuff as Pastor David G. Evan calls it in his ministry series "Dare to be a Man". His message is so POWERFUL!! I listened to those cd's over and over . I recognized some things I did to get the same results from past relationships. So why after learning what not to say or not do to a man or learning how men think would I end it with a bang. Funny I don't really have any regrets about the outcome..just how it came to its demise..if I felt secure in the relationship enough it probably would not be blogging about this.. No matter what I looove me some me but I could work on being a better me and that means during my break I will dig a little deeper and hopefully find more roots to dig up...but in the interim I am going to handle my business:)