Overpromise...underdeliver..

Today I had a situation happen to me that almost knocked me backwards...but I accepted the change and decided that it was going to enhance my life in someway..so I will just wait and see how. On my journey for renewal I am learning and understanding little bits at a time ...I will call them "nuggets" small chunks or epiphanic moments...that come unexpectedly..(btw I make up words ...if Jesse Jackson can...so can I ..lol) ..like today I realized that I am not going to make anymore promises nor accept promises from people who cant deliver. If I know that I cannot deliver as promised than I will simply say so...I did not think about it until I realized that it was happening to me more than I would care to mention. Maybe its because I am not always accountable for my actions...i.e. if I'm late for something...or forget a date ...you attract what you are..so I will work on my stuff and hold others to the fire too. If I do better than hopefully I will attract better...I think so..

This is my first day....be gentle

Day 1-Today is the my first day blogging...my good friend "lechelle" who is a regular blogger suggested that I give it a try so here I am in all my glory. I feel a little exposed but I am not at all shy..so I will get over myself and let loose. I must say that it really hit me that I had a lot to say and needed another way to express my thoughts...or maybe my journal needed a rest. I realized a horrible truth , I was not being honest with myself and some of the decisions that I have made and it has cost me a lot of time, effort and money. None can be replaced..so I will take the lesson and apply it to my life moving forward. So this is going to be a journey of renewal....new beginnings in decisions I make from here on out ... I need to be a little more selective with people, places and things. I realize being a nice person can really lead you into a world of trouble. So here it is..from here on my bad decisions are a thing of the past..we hope. The thing with bad decisions you have to keep making bad decisions to keep supporting them. You keep convincing yourself that it will work itself out and usually it never does..so you keep medicating yourself with overriding thoughts to snuff out the obvious..YOU MADE A BIG MISTAKE...so I was there and now I am here...here meaning I stop accepting certain phone calls or making certain phone calls. Hey somethings are better left unspoken. Everyone might not agree..ok go ahead pick up the phone and let the "bad choice" talk you right back into the thing you are trying to let go.